I saw this article from Tamara Star on Huffington Post. What caught my attention was that I had all 7 habits of chronically unhappy people. Here are the seven from the article and how they related to my job:
- Your default belief is that life is hard – yes, because the job was hard.
- You believe most people can’t be trusted – yes, because the insurers, the government and the administrators could NOT be trusted and proved that every day.
- You concentrate on what’s wrong in this world versus what’s right – guilty but the world of medicine has so much wrong that you just get caught up in the crap.
- You compare yourself to others and harbor jealousy – I was jealous of specialists, friends in other jobs, the mailman, and anyone not in medicine.
- You strive to control your life – that defines being a doctor.
- You consider your future with worry and fear – I was beyond worry and fear. I was convinced there was no hope.
- You fill your conversations with gossip and complaints – that is what my partners talked about every day. We bitched. I wrote about it in this blog. It consumed me.
Here is the good news. I have changed in the last two months. Doing Direct Primary Care has almost made it hard to continue this blog. Life is easier. I trust those around me since I do not deal with the insurers, the government or administrators. I can see what is right and no longer compare myself to others as much. I have control over my life and the future is bright. I no longer talk to my physician friends about what is wrong with our job. I have left that job. I still speak to my former partner, who also started his own practice, and we are both amazed how relaxing life is now. I have found a path to happiness. That doesn’t mean it’s perfect but I recommend that everyone consider walking off the grid of industrialized because it is damn close to perfect. I enjoy being a doctor again.