Chronically Unhappy

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I saw this article from Tamara Star on Huffington Post.  What caught my attention was that I had all 7 habits of chronically unhappy people.  Here are the seven from the article and how they related to my job:

  1. Your default belief is that life is hard – yes, because the job was hard.
  2. You believe most people can’t be trusted – yes, because the insurers, the government and the administrators could NOT be trusted and proved that every day.
  3. You concentrate on what’s wrong in this world versus what’s right – guilty but the world of medicine has so much wrong that you just get caught up in the crap.
  4. You compare yourself to others and harbor jealousy – I was jealous of specialists, friends in other jobs, the mailman, and anyone not in medicine.
  5. You strive to control your life – that defines being a doctor.
  6. You consider your future with worry and fear – I was beyond worry and fear.  I was convinced there was no hope.
  7. You fill your conversations with gossip and complaints – that is what my partners talked about every day.  We bitched.  I wrote about it in this blog.  It consumed me.

Here is the good news.  I have changed in the last two months.  Doing Direct Primary Care has almost made it hard to continue this blog.  Life is easier.  I trust those around me since I do not deal with the insurers, the government or administrators. I can see what is right and no longer compare myself to others as much.  I have control over my life and the future is bright.  I no longer talk to my physician friends about what is wrong with our job.  I have left that job.  I still speak to my former partner, who also started his own practice, and we are both amazed how relaxing life is now.  I have found a path to happiness.  That doesn’t mean it’s perfect but I recommend that everyone consider walking off the grid of industrialized because it is damn close to perfect.  I enjoy being a doctor again.

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